Patience still isn't my virtue

You know, I thought it would get better. 

It didn't.

Once I made it through FRP, I thought the anxiety and the paranoia would go away.

It hasn't.

Will I get a January invite?

Probably not because I'm so far down on the list.

My fingers are crossed for a March invite.

It might seem like I'm complaining. I'm really not. I am so grateful that I've made this far.  All of my hard work has paid off, and it happened relatively quickly. However, I feel like my life is in limbo.  I canceled my 5 week vacation and now I'm just sitting here. waiting. For someone to tell me something. 

This is not conducive to my type-A, control freak, slightly OCD personality.

We have had this conversation before right about here.  I actually just re-read it and I'm pretty obnoxious and so full of myself. It's pretty funny considering a couple of months later I was rejected.  Talk about eating massive amounts of chocolate cake after that.  

Anyhow, I think I'm going to start planning my vacay with J. We're now discussing Tuscany or Prague.  At this point, I don't care where I go as long as I go somewhere with my love.  My friend is going to Turks and Caicos? No, it's not Aruba. It's somewhere in the middle of the Caribbean.  Maybe I can score a present.